Check-in

I have just a couple minutes to write today. I just want to “check in” with my heart. Right now I am feeling:

1.  Optimistic about moving to Minnesota. There’s still a long list of bittersweet pros and cons, yet my heart feels optimistic. I am looking forward to the feeling of a fresh start, and of launching into something long-term. (Or at least, beginning the last “transitionary” stage until we get to long-term.)

2.  Very aware of how far I have yet to come with all the issues I’ve been working through over the past several months. I’m still uncovering layers I didn’t know were there, but I think I’ve made it through most of the intense “discovery” process for now. I think I’m pretty aware of what needs to be dealt with right-now, and am starting to move forward on those things. This in itself – clarity and specificity about WHAT it is I need to be dealing with/working on/seeking healing for – is a huge step forward for me. It helps take the oomph out of my normal overwhelmed feeling about “my issues.”

3.  Grateful for my counselor. She has helped to bring me so far in terms of clarity about the next step in my journey (see #2).

4.  Excited for a day filled with quality relational time with people I love and whom I will dearly miss when we move.

5.  A little bit more ready for Annabel’s party on Sunday, though not totally there. Getting closer!

6.  Excited about said party! And hopeful that it will go off without a hitch.

7.  A little anxious about the fact that somehow, even though I had a smart phone (you know, the one that got run over by several cars after I left it on top of our van and drove away), all my phone numbers are gone and there is apparently no way to reload them onto my phone. How does that happen with a smart phone?! …Apparently, there is at least an online list of my numbers. So I’m looking forward to the pleasure of manually re-entering all my phone numbers one-by-one into my phone. Yay!

8.  Grateful that I can still have decaf coffee in the mornings while pregnant. Those little luxuries go a long way! :D