grieving Jubilee

I’ve been working on the third part of Jubilee Ruth’s story for two weeks now. It’s taking me so much longer to get through than I ever thought it would. The first part, I wrote in one long sitting during Annabel’s nap. The second part, I wrote in maybe two long sittings. But with this third part, the part where I share about losing her, I’ve sat down to work on it about six times so far. And every time, I get through about a paragraph or maybe two before I start crying and have to just stop. I know that telling the story is a crucial part of my grieving process, both the process of writing it and letting others into it. But, it’s just taking longer than I expected. So, this morning, I’m going to post Part III, even though the story isn’t finished yet. I think that I’ve gotten through the saddest part, and my hope is that getting this most difficult part out there will give me the closure I need to begin sharing about God’s goodness and mercy that have been following me ever since.